Photos!

Well, here are some photos, Alaina is 8 weeks old in a couple days... These obviously range from all 8 weeks...

Haha. she's been amazing, and quite the little handful. But I dont mind.

Its been a while

So its been quite a while. But this one might be short as I'm kinda beat and dont feel much like writing...
So I had the baby, pics to be posted soon I hope. 17 hours of labor then a c-section, then what seems like non-stop traveling and running around even though I'm supposed to be recooperating..ok shorter than i thought..lol. i dont feel like writing period..hopefully ill have some time here soon

Holiday traffic woes

So, its been pretty nice out...supposed to be amazing pretty much for the rest of the week, and I have nothing to do that requires being outside. The only outside I really have is talking a walk (which becomes painful after a few mins) and running errands, which requires spending money and still being mostly inside. It kinds sucks. I wish I had a yard or something.

So my baby furniture is being delivered to my moms on friday. I want to drive up there so that I can meet them for the delivery and drive the dresser back, but everyone is wary about my going up. My mom thinks I'm going to go into labor in traffic and have the baby on the side of the road. Which would blow...a lot. lol. But I also want to get my dresser so I can finish putting all of her clothes away instead of the being folded in a damn hamper and a plastic bag. Not gonna lie, driving up early morning (and hitting morning commute) and driving back the same afternoon (hitting memorial day traffic) isnt going to be fun, but I think my desire to get my shit superceeds the inconvenience. Although, the fact that I am already dilated makes me a little bit nervous to make that trip. Granted, it really is only a 2 hour drive (theoretically), but still.
I love to drive though. It'll be 85 or so. So it wont be too bad. I can hang out and tan..kind of, maybe in the front rather than the back (bc the stupid yard is big and i wont hear someone ring the doorbell from out back)...haha, I'll make my sister come to my moms so she can hang out and I wont be so bored and alone.

Ok I'm rambling now. I'm wide awake sadly, but exhausted and really bored. I've looked at everything I usually do online (I dont generally seek out cool new shit on the internet as I get bored easily with it)..so maybe its time to read a book or watch some stupid tv or something..grrr

Beat

So I pretty much fail at this blogging thing lately. lol..I used to be so awesome but I've slowly declined over the years...Plus I think sitting behind the computer makes me bored and puts me to sleep. I check my crap then I'm off. I cant sit on the computer like I used to anymore. And, I'm exhausted. (Boy I cant wait till I really dont sleep at night after this baby comes!)
So above is the cake they got for me for my baby shower..I regret not bringing some home..but the car was packed and I don't forsee it traveling well..It was tasty.. The baby shower was, not gonna lie, not exactly a surprise. To be honest, I couldnt see any other possible time for me to have it, it was the only logical day it could have been. I can't really travel up to NY anymore and I cant imagine fitting a shitload of people in my apartment, so it was as I suspected, this past Saturday. I honestly thought they were going to do it on Sunday, mother's day, but I'm glad they didnt. Anyways, a lot of people I didnt expect to show up did. All of them family. But I am pretty much the worst hostess and the worst at being the center of attention. I tried to talk to everyone and made my rounds and all of that. But it was still probably the oddest thing for me ever. My sister yells at me all the time telling me that I am not selfish enough, and this is my time to be selfish and I'm not fulfilling my duty to be such. She thinks I do too much giving and not enough taking.
Anyways, I didnt get to take any pictures. I'm hoping that people will be nice and share them with me the ones they took. There is one picture of Brendan floating around...I love it...they chanted and pressured him into wearing the gay hat they make the women wear (I of course tried very hard to refuse to wear it but no one would have it)..and so he flipped a coin and lost..so he wore the hat..Obviously that picture is now posted all over the internet...its great.

After some shopping at babies r us and several hundred dollars later, I have to sit and chill out. I'm beat and I want to clean up our apartment some before he gets home..as I've been pretty lazy (ie exhausted) lately and cant seem to do too much. I busted my ass on monday and tuesday I was pretty much layed up all day. Slept till 10 then took a nap at 12 until about 3ish. I rock.

Nokamixon, the Poconos, and a trip home..lol

New Orleans #1

Pictures thus far..

AHHH!!

Ok, super short post but....I'm going to New Orleans in 2 weeks (9 days to be precise). There will be LOTS of pictures!

what to do, what to do...

I so wish I could have taken a picture of the mess but it all happened so quickly...
So there has been a pretty fantastic odor in my apartment. The bathroom is hot and musty and smelly, almost like someone just took a hot shower and makes a huge mess and never cleans it. I wasn't super sure that the people below us had completely moved out over a month ago, but I had a pretty good hunch..On Monday the maintenance guys finally came buy to replace the faucet in the bathroom, so since the smell was just getting worse, I figured I'd bring it up then. We asked, followed them down when they opened the door, and was shocked to find their ceiling colapsed and a water pipe was spraying out from the wall and the entire carpet in the whole apartment was soaked. I cant imagine when that happened since there has been an odor on and off since we pretty much moved in, becoming worse in December (before the people moved out). The maintenance guys turns off the water in that apartment to stop the fountain, but that was all. They closed everything up and left like it was no biggy. Several hours later still no one had done anything. So we walked down and asked about it. I get it, I really do, but these people suck. Seriously..They sent out their people who removed the carpet...sprayed some "anti-mold" cherry smelling chemical which stunk, and closed everything up and left. No one has been there all day, so we will see how long it actually takes for them to fix it. Spraying a little bit of anti-mold I dont think will completely do the job. Considering they still closed everything back up and the apartment was hot and humid , and only removed part of the carpet...
I dont want to be a bitch, but its always something in this place I swear. I'm going to request a formal plan in writing when I can expect everything to be fixed. I went to the doctor today with mold and health concerns and she recommends we get them to move us..wherein lies the problem. Lease is up the end of June or July. Which is fantastically right after the baby gets here..it sounds conventient and easy to just be moved to another apartment, but I have no doubts that things will be the same..We moved to these from the other shitty ones because we thought it would be better..It's not better, we just have different obsticles and issues here. if we move to yet another apartment in this complex, it'll be the same..the same crap. I hate that everything happens at once and really, my time in PA is up in the air (ie. if brendan goes away he isnt too keen on my staying here in PA all alone and not know anyone) but we may just end up moving again anyways...moving our shit twice in 5 months or so isnt exactly appealing to me.
Hence...what to do what to do...

Sonogram

Woohoo, got it to work..So the top picture, if ya'll can even make it out, is her feets. Toes pointing to the right and they look a little odd because her legs are crossed at the ankles. The other two are profiles. And amuzingly, the bottom one, the back of her left hand is resting on her forehead. I might have a drama queen, but I sure as hell hope not

Daughter

Yesturday I went to the doc for a sonogram. After all the stress with the insurance not paying for it, it went through. No little penis or bump which could deceivingly be some balls. I have a daughter. She's almost 1 lb at 13oz and likes to cross her legs at the ankles...She did this in the first sonogram too and didn't really uncross them at all. She's pretty active, but I'm sure her activity will be increasing each day (and night sadly). I'm so rediculously happy its not funny..even, retardedly, brings tears to my eyes thinking about it (which is probably just surging hormones as usual). I swear the night before the appointment it felt like christmas eve. Except I get to continually open gifts and get more stuff as the year progresses. And the big gift of course...June 9, or so expected, but we'll see. So I tried to attach a photo...but it didnt work out so well, which is still fine since the scanned copy isnt exactly super clear. I sent it to my grandmother without even looking at it, just forwarded it, and then had to email back appologizing bc I didnt realize the crappiness. I'm sure I'll be one of those parents who take a gazillion pictures of their kid for everyone to see...

In other news, one of my mom's dogs died...I'm very sad. She was a part of the family and she was a really great dog. I do realize she was getting into the "old" category for her type, but still, I kinda wish she would live forever. I also found out my mother is getting sicker. She has lyme disease, but no treatments are helping and tests are inconclusive. She is forced to go to work to make ends meet and her job is giving her shit. And I feel aweful because she can barely walk anymore, and her whole body aches as well as this new onset of massive headaches, blackouts and dizziness..
To make matters worse, I'm sure she's becomming quite depressed from all the bull from her job, and my sister has become a bad child. She is 18, shes an adult, but emotionally, mentally, she has the capacity of a 13 yr old. Her boyfriend (who she feels the world would end without) is attached at her hip and together they steal jewerly and money. She has no ambitions for life anymore but to be with her boyfriend...I honestly feel that her self esteem is so low, that she thinks that no one would ever want to be with her other than the current douche. Their relationship is less than decent. She is so easily influenced and tries to take the blame for everything when we know none of this crap is her idea. I wish I could smack some sense into her and show her the light. I kinda feel like I should bring her down here for a couple months (IF she finishes high school..which is another issue) just to get her away from him so she can think for herself and hopefully forget about him. Under the rouse of "helping me with the baby" and all that jazz. The only problem, I would have to become her damn parent and put rules and restrictions on her, it would be super stressful on me and she probably wouldnt do it anyways. if she did, it would be limited time, and she'd be on the phone with him all the time for hours. And, if she did somehow do it, I'm afraid she'd bring drugs into the house (which for a mature rational person I wouldnt care because their chances of being caught are oooh, much slimmer) but shes stupid about that stuff, and if she was caught with drugs in our home, that ruins Brendan's career and our life...

ok sorry, enough with the ranting. I cant fix her issues even though I kinda feel like I have to...Its just adding more stress to my life..
I should be concentrating on baby stuff...and fixing up the baby's room..
We have yet to pick a name. Some which I would pick in a heartbeat Brendan isnt so sure about. This is gonna be a tough one...agreeing on a name . Well, when I get some more pics, whatever they may be...I'll probably post them..
I finally got my computer back (as it blew up and HP had to fix it) so I can get my shit back together...

unexpected surprise

I've been pretty cranky the last two days...pick anything and I'm sure it has some weight to my mood...Anyways..so 2 minutes ago the mail guy came and noisily shoved the mail through the damn mail slot and banged on the door...Which usually means there is a delivery he's let outside. I had gotten a gift card to Victoria's secret for Christmas and i used it online...YAY! for their semi-annual sales..Anyways, I wasn't expecting the delivery for another day or 2, but I had a wonderful surprise when I went down to check the door. An awesome bagful of underwear. I love underwear and can never have enough...
So I just thought I'd share because my day has gotten infinitely better (even though I woke up still a little cranky).
Oh, and I'm impatient and excited because next week I theoretically get to find out the gender of my baby. That's if it keeps its legs open for us. I'm getting very anxious to start getting stuff and choosing a name and all that.

So I haven't take any belly pics since I've been pregnant, but since the requests have been rackin' up, I had to take some..I haven't taken any others unfortunately...except for the tons of rediculous cats pictures that no one wants to see..lol. I've been a bit of a hermit. So here is that quintessential belly picture everyone always wants to see...I took it this morning...19 weeks..almost halfway there!